In today's energy of Loving Kindness within Authoritarian presence
It was a blesSing today to be able to serve in Chesed as friend to a beloved older friend.
This friend never asks me for assistance, although I offer when I think it is needed, and I am turned down due to the friend's independence.
Today while my friend had to deal with authorities who had been ignoring her pleas for certain needs to be met, she asked me to support her with my presence, and I did. I was able to serve as witness, and as guide. It was loving of my friend to trust me and extend herself in my partial care for a short time.
All I was and am, was present for my friend.
This morning another friend who is not Counting the Omer, called to talk and cry, and showed gratitude for my enduring friendship. Yes, I have been a friend, and no more than she has been a friend to me, extending her Chesed/Loving-Kindness in all that she is, in this world. In friendship, I examine my giving to make sure it is in the friend's best interest. Friend was right in the day's energy, and only at the end of our tearful conversation, did I reveal the Omer day we are in, Chesed sh b'Malchut.
Today I called another friend because every day we speak to each other to be supportive to each other in Chesed/love and kindness. We are blesSings to each other. All the energies of the Sephirot flow into Malchut to have us be the best that we can be in our connection to self, each other and to Hashem.
Yes, in this Chesed sh b'Malchut energy, I have been also befriending several others through phone, e-mail, snail mail, and in person. This is my character, yet on today, I acknowledge the reality of my being, accept where in the world my energy originates from, and I am grateful for the opportunities presented to me to "Ivdu Et Hashem B'Simcha" / 'Serve G*d With Joy.
May the refinement work of cosmic cleansing that I do on myself during the 49 days of Kabbalistically Counting the Sephirat HaOmer help me to mamash/truly be who I am, and need to become. I desire to delete klipot/husks (negative influences) and again ready myself for Shavuot by strengthening, elevating and perfecting my midot/character traits.