LOVINGKINDNESS WITHIN COMPASSION - day 15 CHESED sh b’TIFERET

LOVINGKINDNESS WITHIN COMPASSION - day 15 CHESED sh b’TIFERET

PSALMS OF MY SOUL and photo © Joy Krauthammer 

Kabbalistic Sephirat HaOmer   ספירת העומר

Chesed sh b'Tiferet - day 15, two weeks and 1 day of the Omer

http://sephirathaomer.blogspot.com/2015/05/lovingkindness-within-compassion-day-15.html

Feeling Chesed sh b’Tiferet, I think about how hours ago I stood in shul moving over in Chesed/lovingkindness to my friends to stand by them in Tiferet/compassion– friends who were in current deep mourning and saying Kaddish over the recent loss of their loved ones, z”l.  Same spiritual friends were surely mamash present for me when I lost my husband a decade ago, z"l. (Mourning is a lonesome journey, even when friends are present.) 

Concentrating on my Tiferet heart sharing with friends, my hands touching them, momentarily I forgot to say names for Kaddish of my own recently departed loved ones, z"l.

In Chesed/kindness, from the bima, my rabbi reminded me of my own needs to harmonize in Tiferet/truth and balance. It was also my father’s, z”l, Yahrzeit. In love I recall Yosef Natan ben Hyman and on Mother’s Day today, recall my mother, Leba bat Avram haKohen v’Etel. Today on FaceBook I shared a painting that Mom created probably 50 years ago, just before she died.

Today I sent names of loved ones, z”l, to family so that others can say Kaddish for family.  In Memory Of greater family members and for the living, I’ve spent years creating a Chesed and Tiferet filled site with decades of much lovingly collected information and photos for our Family Tree.

How does this mindful work I do with permutations of Sephirot affect the refinement of my Neshamah? I need to dig deeper and see where I must improve. On Tashlich I always run out of crumbs...

And I learned again early today from my Breslovcampus.org on-line teacher* that the "inner work I do has effect on outer world for all Jewish people. That my Mitzvot, the positive expressions of my Midot/personality traits, are for the collective spiritual health of all." Decades ago I learned in Tanya the corollary, that if my actions were negative, I bought down Hashem, and the possibility of that thought upset me.

*Sefirah By The Light of Chassidut With Yehudis Golshevski
https://breslovcampus.clickwebinar.com/speaking-from-the-so…

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© Joy Krauthammer  3.20.2016

May the refinement work of cosmic cleansing that I do on myself during the 49 days of Kabbalistically Counting the Sephirat HaOmer help me to mamash/truly be who I am, and need to become. I need to delete klipot/husks (negative influences) and again ready myself for Shavuot by strengthening, elevating and perfecting my midot/character traits.

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